sometimes i wish i were a stranger so i could give you the thrill of unexpected compliments and make you learn how much i care about you again. i know its selfish, maybe im just jealous that other people still get the chance and maybe im just a prick who cant settle down to save his life. probably. its okay though, its just a little extra work to get close and youll always deserve that a million times over. i probably am just being an asshole though, i should know better than to assume i even ever was that exciting in the first place. i make that mistake a lot. i try to make sure the people i love know how much they matter but i think it just comes off as overbearing and annoying and by the time i notice theyre uncomfortable theyve already left. i come onto the scene too strong and once im there im underwhelming at best because past that i dont have anything about me. i give too much of the wrong things and never enough of the right ones.